Diary. Volume XXII. 1879–1880

I • II • III • IV • V • VI • VII • VIII • IX • X • XI • XII • XIII • XIV • XV • XVI • XVII • XVIII • XIX • XX • XXI • XXII • XXIII • XXIV • XXV • XXVI Go to [Morgasov] for tea. On September 13, 1879, six bundles of books were sent to binding: in the first - four books, in the second - nineteen, in the third - ten, in the fourth - twenty-three, in the fifth - nineteen and in the sixth - seven. To Innokenty Petrovich Andreev, to Ivan Filippovich of Prussia, to Alex. P. Lebedev, to N.M. Semenov, to Yak. [To...] Markov, to the Kalmykovs, to Pelageya Egorovna Fedulova, to Ivan Filippovich Shurygin, to Solomonia Ivanovna Ivanova, to Ivan Egorovich Brown, to Father Vasily Saltykov - about the letter to Archpriest Lebedev. Paraskeva Ilyinichna Andreeva - “Christian Reading” for 1835, one book. Captain Vasily Ivanovich Burkhanovsky - “Christian Reading” No. 159 for 1835. To Mikhail Osipovich Britnev. Come to Philip Stepanov for tea. To visit Pelageya Egorovna Fedulova (November 5, 1880). Father Superior Pavel Vasilyevich Trachevsky does not write down money in the mug for the betrothal of the bride and groom, as we always do. This was the case in October 1880, on the 5th or 6th after Leonty Neustroev’s engagement to Ekaterina Kudryavtseva. God be with him, the money hidden from the brethren will not be used for future use. He serves very little at all, and then takes for himself what he serves (although not always); We serve constantly and write everything in a mug according to the established order, and he receives more than everyone else, just as he received, and has saved tens of thousands of rubles. Like fire and like deadly poison, the unrighteous money will consume him and those who are from his blood. But the Lord will not leave us. Did the rector record the income for the admission of Lutheran girls, whose successors were Mrs. Forster and Mr. Klementyev, the clerk of the gymnasium?.. Inquire and take note. October 12, 1880. On November 14, 1880, visit Mrs. Uvarova and bring her benefits. You are fulfilling the apostolic commandment: Let those who are good elders be given special honor; especially those who labor in word and teaching [Russian: It is proper that elders in charge should be given special honor, especially those who labor in word and teaching] [1 Timothy 5:17]. I can honestly say that I tried to be diligent in my work, although my service, of course, was not without its shortcomings. But only God is perfect. As for the word and teaching, I tried throughout my ministry to appear with the word of teaching; How fruitful it was is not for me to judge, but for God and society. And for this, thanks be to God, that He deigned me to spend almost the entire twenty-five-year period of my priesthood with children, teaching them the Law of God: I taught and learned, edified and was edified myself, delighted 1 and admired myself, purified and purified, sanctified and was sanctified. 1879, January 25th day, Thursday. No. 1. 1880 January 22 days. A report to Father Dean Archpriest of the Cathedral Trachevsky regarding the loss of the document of the widow Rezantsova (from Staraya Russa). On the past church feast of the holy Apostle Andrew the First-Called, the Lord showed me great mercy, for with the Lord there is mercy, and with Him is great deliverance [Ps. 129:6] for all who come running in unfeigned repentance. During Matins on St. Andrew's Day, the Lord dissolved in me for repentance the many-woven networks of the enemy that had killed my soul (breaking the fast, gluttony, satiety, hard-heartedness, malice, envy, stinginess, love of money, severity and [resistance] to the poor, bitterness). The Lord drove all death out of my soul and gave me His peace, His freedom, His sweet communion in the spirit. I praise the Lord for this. I thank the Lord for His constant providence for the poor, for often I received money for the poor by accident. Today, at a grateful prayer service on the day of the twenty-fifth anniversary of my marriage, I heeded the words of the Apostle: And do not get drunk with wine, for there is fornication in it [Eph. 5:18], and I want, with God’s help, never to get drunk with wine, although until now I have not drunk much, but neither little nor rarely. Today I was extremely weak in spirit during the prayer service, barely able to pronounce the prayers and the Gospel because I drank quite a lot of grape wine. Delight (Church Glav.) – meaning to exalt, raise to a height.