Январь

January 25, 1870; resurrection; день славной памяти вселенского учителя и святителя святого Григория Богослова , архиепископа Константинопольского. Through his prayers, Lord, have mercy and save us. Tuesday. Saint Xenophon and Mary and their children John and Arkady. Воистину, крестными заслугами Христа Спасителя действуют все Таинства: Крещение, Миропомазание, Причащение, Покаяние, Священство, Брак и Елеосвящение, оттого главное во всех Таинствах – знамение креста. Glory, Lord, to Your Cross. Если случится в Великий пост , в который-либо из постных дней высокоторжественный день Царский, то служба отправляется по храмовой главе (в уставе): накануне вечерня со входом, вечером – малое повечерие, поутру – великое повечерие с тропарями и кондаками святому (например, святому Порфирию Газскому, 25 февраля), после Нескверная , неблазная стихиры на стиховне, потом Богородице Virgin, rejoice and troparion to the saint; Be the name of the Lord; the priest blesses. Then the six psalms, kathisma; Praise the name of the Lord and other things according to the rules. «Бог с ним, пусть он живет, не нами он сотворен», – сказала Чуева о Петре Николаевиче Янише, когда я сказал о его болезни и что, быть может, Бог отзовет его из этой жизни, и гимназии дадут другого начальника. Those who do not come to church on three Sundays in a row are excommunicated from the communion of the Church. VI Ecumenical Council. Gambling priests are defrocked if they do not correct themselves. Святую Евфимию всехвальную по женским учебным заведениям, преимущественно духовным. Rakovsky should be given the task of making a footstool for the cross with a crucifix. During fasting, drink lukewarm water with sugar and black bread. Avoid drinking sweet tea: it is harmful to the soul and body. Oh, holy faith in my Lord Jesus Christ! От скольких смертей духовных ты спасла меня по молитве моей, от какого смущения, каких теснот, насилия страстей исторгла меня! Давно прекратилась бы жизнь моя, и давно я был бы во аде, если бы не спасала меня вера Христова! Она исторгает меня от зверства страстей: злобы, зависти, гордости, тщеславия, блуда, пресыщения, своенравия и упрямства, ропота, хулы, уныния! Велиар давно поглотил бы меня и низринул бы во ад, если бы Господь не защищал и не спасал меня и не давал бы мне духа покаяния и умиления сердечного. Thanks be to the Lord my God! Когда будешь воздерживаться, человек, когда не будешь по утрам есть и пить чай, а вечером не [ будешь ] ужинать? Повод к злобе на брата из-за курения табаку со стороны его и из-за чревоугодия со стороны моей. Брату моему, как и мне, не более требуется пищи и питья сегодня, как сколько нужно было вчера и третьего дня и т. д. Каждый день в этом убеждаемся опытом, а всё какое-то беспокойство и подозрительность касательно ядущего брата: как бы не объел, не обпил. Such are the dreams of the glutton and those attached to earthly things; Such are the machinations of the enemy - to torment us with the womb and greedy suspiciousness! Вспомним слова Писания: да будет трапеза их сетью, тенетами и петлею в возмездие им [ Рим. 11, 9 ; Пс.68, 23 ]! Нужно, по Евангелию, быть беспопечительным касательно пищи, подобно птицам: ибо как их питает Отец Небесный, тогда как они ни сеют, ни жнут, ни собирают в житницы [ Мф. 6, 26], so us, and especially me, or us, His sinful servants. But the enemy worries and frightens us all our lives with his dreams and ghosts. And everything was caused by eating the forbidden fruit. Hearing the special and great litany in the church, as well as the prayer Save, O God, Thy people and litia, imagine yourself as a member of the Church of Christ, existing on earth and in heaven, a member of the body of Christ; try to love everyone as members of one body; honor and love the Heavenly Church, the heavenly citizens - the saints, the faithful children of the Heavenly Father, and with faith, hope and love call upon them in prayer. Grant me, Lord, the strength to despise the flesh and what is for the flesh, and take care of the soul. Christ is in all things and in all [Col. 3, 11]: how should I treat all people, with what meekness and what kindness should I serve them? Resurrection. He served the Liturgy with inner, heartfelt weakness, which came from prolonged sleep the day before, and last night from satiety (beyond custom, I ate egg porridge with a significant amount of quick butter with an appetite). Сердце было холодно, бессильно для молитвы; многократно припадал к престолу и просил огня у Господа. He pronounced the names of the Royal House firmly, except for Nikolai Nikolaevich and his wife - he doubted: internal respect is weak due to rumors; and whoever is weak must be strengthened with intense prayer. I read the prayer behind the pulpit firmly and with the strength of faith; in the end, devilish haste, confusion and omission of words: every gift is good... The sermon was spoken according to Orlov - about Zacchaeus. I took communion into the world of spiritual forces; but the bad wine had an unpleasant effect on me. But fathers don’t feel it. In the evening I sinned before the Lord: with displeasure and anger I gave alms to two beggars for pants and boots. Oh, I am satiated, dressed up, pampered! What have I done, you damned one! If I had to take off my fur coat in the cold, then I should willingly give it to a beggar - for the sake of Christ, the Lamb of God, who took upon Himself the sins of the world and mine. (I am known as a good-natured person on my own neck, I said with a tone of reproach; you can’t go anywhere without meeting you: if you want, give, and if you don’t want, give.) O I, unrequited before the Lord: I regret giving tuna what I received from Him; I feel sorry for money, which is the earth, and I do not feel sorry for my neighbor, like me, who is in the image of God, to whom the whole earth is subjugated, in whom God clothed himself, for whom the God-man ascended to the cross and died! Lamb of God, take away the sins of the world! I have sinned before You! Forgive me, cleanse my sins! Take from me this burden of sins and give me the grace of meekness and gentleness. How much harm I cause myself with my irritability and anger! Without number! And most importantly, I insult my Lover, the Lamb of God, Jesus Christ, the Lover of Mankind, for Whom our malice, hard-heartedness and unmercifulness are worse than thorns, more painful than cross nails, a sharp spear, worse than spitting and strangling. John, John, why are you persecuting me?.. I am a sinner, Lord! You are often persecuted in the person of Your least brethren - Your poor people, who bear the cross of poverty. Think: you are the image of God! What a priceless treasure you have! But the image of God in you has fallen and is distorted: think about what care, what work you need to use to restore it, to renew it. And your neighbor is in the image of God: how meekly, respectfully, and purely you must treat him, how you must care about the restoration and renewal of the image of God in him, about the salvation of his soul! And how little we think that we are in the image of God, and how little we think about our duty in relation to our soul, as created in the image of God, fallen and redeemed. So-and-so has died, we hear. So what?.. We will all die, but not at the same time: he died yesterday, and we died tomorrow or later. Everyone needs to prepare for death, and for those who have already died, pray for their sins to be forgiven. But before we die physically, we are spiritually dead: let us hasten to immediately rise by repentance. Until now, I am still a glutton, and I consider the arrival of guests as a reason for gluttony, gluttony and drunkenness! Until now, I have enjoyed daily satiation. Long-suffering Lord! Be patient with my impatience, foolishness and speechlessness, so that I may turn around. Monday. I thank the Lord, who gave me the grace to consummate my marriage with great strength and to overcome the invisible enemy who fought me. He married John and Catherine in front of a crowd of people. Note. The predominant direction of society is gambling. What do church canons say about players? The direction of the society is also theater-gambling, piano-gambling. Is life a toy? Is it not the implementation of the great task of salvation, conversion, perfection? Meanwhile, if you look at the players, you will think that they are solving some important problem, and saving the soul seems to be an empty matter. To decide whether card and other games are harmful or sinful, you just need to observe yourself: do we pray as earnestly and fervently after a game as when we are not playing, but reading a holy book or doing some good deed? Are we as inclined to show mercy to the poor as when we are not playing? Is our spiritual barometer – the heart – falling to the freezing point? How do I offend the Most Holy Theotokos, all the Heavenly Powers and my holy Guardian Angel with my sins? By desecrating the image of God in myself, according to which they, and I, and all people were equally created. Examples of terrible gluttony: a man in the Pskov province undertook to eat whole rye bread, drink a samovar of water and a quarter of vodka. Ate, drank; walked a mile and a half from the village - and died. The poisoning of Klokachev in the Arkhangelsk province is a double of Emperor Nicholas: the dead man’s stomach burst out from the accumulation of gases. Glory to the grace of Baptism! Every time I perform this Sacrament of renewal, I myself am renewed in spirit and body, healed from sorrows, receive sanctification, taste heavenly peace, delight in the spirit, spread in my heart, enlightened by Divine light, strengthened in faith, hope and love. This Sacrament is wonderful, great and heavenly! I hope that it produces a great, saving change in the soul of the baptized. How many times have I heard that the babies who were baptized by me in the spirit of faith and reverence were amazingly calm day and night and grew happily, flourishing in spirit and body! January 27, 1870. The highest persons are judged by the Most High God, not us. Our job is to pray for those who sin. And the common Judge of all is God. It is fitting for us all to appear before the judgment seat of Christ [2 Cor. 5, 10]. Let each of us work out our own salvation with fear and trembling, and let us not judge others, and let us not turn the sins of our neighbors into a reason for malice, slander and gloating. The slave of the womb is the enemy of God and neighbor: he hates, envies, is proud, commits fornication, is lazy, absentminded, laughs, and is hard-hearted towards the poor. Don’t complain, but be patient, because you don’t know what will come out of your misfortune, temptation, sorrow, illness, loss, allowed to you by God; That's right - it's good. Why, they say, pray if the prayer is not fulfilled? It's better not to pray. Meanwhile, God did not fulfill our prayers in order to show us the instability of our faith, our hope, the lack of our love. When everything goes, as they say, in a favorable wind, until then we are good, perhaps, and thank the Lord, and as soon as circumstances go against our will, we grumble and blaspheme, as if God is obliged to always have mercy on us for our sins and compensate our ingratitude and ill-will with His benefits; on the contrary, we deserve thousands of misfortunes every day because of our sins. Not everything should be given place to mercy - we must give place to justice and righteous punishment, or Divine abandonment, so that we recognize our sinfulness, abomination, uncleanness, powerlessness, pride, malice, envy, our fornications - in general, our sins, for when everything is fine, we do not want to know what is going on in our inner world, how everything in it is ungodly, lawless, vain. And misfortunes bring us back into ourselves, giving us a favorable opportunity to recognize ourselves, our ugliness. But in days of misfortunes, falls, abandonment of God, in order not to lose heart at all, we must remember a favorable time, a time of happiness, when everything smiled at us. And there are more such happy days in our lives than unhappy ones. (Or God Himself and I have become arrogant - so God gives us [...] to Satan, so that we may be punished not to blaspheme, not to be proud.) God, they say, is unjust and unmerciful; or that for some He is the Father of bounties and the God of all delights [2 Cor. 1, 3], and for others - the inexorable Master, constantly punishing them, only for them he squeezes His right hand, which is stretched out for everyone. Constantly failures, poverty, illness. For some, they say, happiness never ceases to smile, while others always struggle with misfortunes, with unfavorable circumstances, and always encounter failures. The inequality of human destiny in this world is a stumbling block for many. Even for the righteous this was a stumbling block. Holy King David says: I envied the foolish, seeing the prosperity of the wicked [Ps. 72, 3]... Adversities and misfortunes often end our friendship with sin, showing its bitterness, producing a salutary fermentation in the soul, during which evil is separated from our soul and floats to the top, serving as a cleansing fire. We blaspheme the words of Holy Scripture, using them inside out or as a joke, we blaspheme liturgical rites, priestly vestments, likening them [very] inappropriately to worldly things, everyday, vain; they slander what they do not know; What they know by nature, like dumb animals, they corrupt themselves [Jude. 1, 10]. The sources of blasphemy, murmuring, blasphemy are an unclean, unbridled heart, not trained in the Christian faith, hope, love, patience, humility, obedience, kindness, and contentment with little things. He who cares immoderately about acquisitions, who strives for honor and distinction, who is very busy with appearances, certainly neglects the interior, the only thing needed, he has a hollowed-out wall, a whitened coffin. It is impossible for God and mammon to work together [Matt. 6, 24]. It is a blasphemy against God when man is produced from a monkey, when the world is credited with self-education, and not with the fact that it was created by God. The source of blasphemy is a proud, arrogant mind. Blasphemy against God, when the Holy Scriptures are called contrary to human reason; blasphemy against God when the Church is revered only as an institution for the crowd, and not for all people in general, as a necessary, necessary ship for everyone, as a necessary, necessary ship of salvation for everyone. Why does my heart often feel heavy when I turn my face to the west, especially when there is a large crowd of people? Because in the west the incorporeal enemy has his own power. But may I prevail over him in the power of the might of the Lord. On the 30th of January, during the wedding, in front of a multitude of people and especially dressed-up ladies, the enemy embarrassed, embarrassed and darkened me, not allowing me to utter the words: The servant of God Paul is getting engaged to the servant of God Anastasia - and look directly at the faces of the bride and groom and the people; I read my prayers with the greatest difficulty, constantly being raped by the enemy; The enemy stole some words of prayer from my heart and lips and did not allow me to pronounce them due to my cowardice. Terrible fight! Father Matthew, quarreling, and enmity with the brethren, and worrying, crowns without stumbling: his spirit is stronger than mine, but I quickly lose heart, my insides are terribly weak! May this failure be my last! I sinned gravely before God by teaching the Divine Mysteries to the dying Georgiy, a retired clerk, in Shakhova’s house, smiling frivolously and slyly, seeing his eyes seem to be rolling out of his head and somehow looking testily at me! Oh, wickedness! Oh, frivolity! Oh, the audacity I committed before the face of the Lord of glory! Oh, satiety! I seduced my brother with my lack of faith, my deceit! Oh, where the enemy does not lay a snare for me, where he does not confuse me, does not tempt me! What about me? Like a cane shaken by the wind! But forgive me, my Savior! This is the first - and may it be the last - my frivolity, which turned out to be so impudent! Grant me to always fight victoriously against the evil enemy, who fights me now with the deceit of the heart and crafty laughter, now with vain fear and shame, now with lustful thoughts and feelings, now with malice and envy, now with delicacy, now with the desire for honor or money, now with laziness, and so on and so forth. Father Matthew reproached me for giving alms as if for show, publicly, while I am forced by necessity to give it everywhere, to the multitude of beggars encountered at every step, so to speak! Oh, if only he knew about the many poor people and, at least like me, began to take care of them and give them at least as meager alms as I do, out of the duty of a shepherd! Apparently it’s easier to reproach! May the Lord enlighten him with the message of fate and teach him to squander his great treasures and not to predatoryly retain what belongs to the poor! God! I appeal to You, the Merciful and Most Generous! Hear me! The priest must be all grief during worship, not clinging to anything earthly: neither to money, nor to beautiful clothes, nor to the beauty of the face, nor to the height of the worldly authorities standing in the church, nor to insignia, standing above anger, envy, irritability, all burning with love for God and neighbor, zealous for the salvation of perishing people with the zeal of God! Nothing earthly in itself and thinking. I sinned against the Lord by being angry with my wife, who came to me while reading an akathist to the Sweetest Jesus with rum boiled with sugar to cure my cough; I sinned by waywardness and stubbornness, malice and anger at her and at a soulless thing - a glass, which, after drinking rum and sugar, he threw with annoyance on the floor and smashed into small smithereens. But I myself wanted to drink a glass of wine for better digestion, which was unsatisfactory. Oh, strange man, mad, capricious, unreasonable, carried away by the passions of the heart! Oh, disrespect for the wife’s personality, lack of appreciation for her love, affection, and courtesy! Because she tries in every possible way to prevent the development of the disease! Have mercy on her, Lord! Have mercy on me, a sinner, Lord! Where is my patience? Where is kindness and obedience? Gold seduces me, the beauty of the face, the whiteness and ruddyness of wheat bread - save me from this triple charm, Lord! May fleeting dust not occupy me, but may You and the imperishable soul, incorruptible virtue and eternal blessings always occupy me. The countless multitude and greatness of God’s benefits to the human race, especially the Christian, revealed and constantly revealed through the Mother of God, is shown in the akathist to the Mother of God and in Her canons, in general in the services compiled in Her honor. Oh, how many and how great blessings have we been awarded through the Most Immaculate Lady Theotokos! How diligently and unceasingly we must praise, thank, and beg Her! Lord, have mercy - many times and often once or thrice, to maintain the consciousness and feeling of our sinfulness and guilt before God. Tune (Church Glav.) - for free. Negli (Church Glav.) – maybe. Prespejat (Church Glorious) – to have success, to succeed. You might be interested in: