Слово 65. О безмолвствующих: когда начинают они понимать, до чего простерлись делами своими в беспредельном море, т. е. в безмолвном житии, и когда могут несколько надеяться, что труды их стали приносить плоды

I'll tell you something, and don't doubt it; do not neglect my other words as something unimportant; because those who delivered this to me are truthful people, and I, both in this word and in all my words, tell you the truth. If you hang yourself by the eyelids of your eyes, then until you achieve tears through this, do not think that you have already achieved something in the passage of your life. For to this day your innermost serves the world, that is, you lead a worldly life, and you do God’s work with an outer man, but the inner man is still barren; because its fruit begins in tears. When you reach the region of tears, then know that your mind has come out of the prison of this world, put its foot on the path of the new age and began to smell that wonderful new air. And then he begins to shed tears, because the illness of the birth of a spiritual baby has approached, since the common mother of all, grace, hastens to mysteriously give birth to the soul a Divine image for the Light of the future age. And when the time of birth comes, then the mind begins to be excited by something there 538, like the breath that a baby draws from inside the members in which it usually feeds. And since he does not tolerate what is still unusual for him, he suddenly begins to induce the body to scream, mixed with the sweetness of honey. And to the extent that the inner baby is nourished, to the same extent there is an increase in tears. But this order of tears that I have described is not the same as occurs at intervals 539 among those who are silent; because everyone who is in silence with God experiences this consolation from time to time, sometimes when he is in mental contemplation, sometimes when he is occupied with the words of the Scriptures, sometimes when he is in prayerful conversation. But I’m not talking about this type of tears, but about the kind that happens to someone who cries continuously day and night. But whoever actually and accurately found the truth of these images found it in silence. For his eyes become like a spring of water until he is two years old or more, and then he comes to pacification of his thoughts; by pacifying one’s thoughts, as much as one’s nature can partly accommodate, one enters into that peace about which St. Paul spoke (see Heb. 4:3); and from this peaceful repose the mind begins to contemplate mysteries; for then the Holy Spirit begins to reveal heavenly things to him, and God dwells in him, and resurrects the fruit of the Spirit in him, and therefore, somewhat unclearly and as if guesswork, a person feels in himself the change 540 that the inner nature should take during the renewal of all things. I wrote this as a keepsake for myself and for everyone reading this work, as I understood from the understanding of the Scriptures, from what was told by truthful lips, and a little from my own experience, so that it could serve me to help me through the prayers of those who would benefit from it; because I spent a lot of work on this. But listen also to what I will now tell you and what I have learned from unlying lips. When you enter the area of ​​pacification of thoughts, then many tears are taken away from you, and then tears come to you in moderation and at the appropriate time. This is the most accurate truth; in short, the whole Church believes so. Belonging to the next century. You might be interested in: