80. Успокоение после воздвигнутой врагом бури искушений. Сборы на родину. Последний совет

God's mercy be with you! Well, thank God! They began to confront their worries with prayer, or, better yet, to the enemy who raised them, and peace came. Help you, Lord, to continue this action. So you see what a storm you have endured! The word of the Lord has been fulfilled over you: “Satan asks... to sow you like wheat” (Luke 22:31). Where did he not throw you?! The Lord allowed it, and he sowed you: now he will throw you in one direction, now in another. What a mercy of God that we were finally delivered! So you learn. The science of life comes from experience. Remember carefully what happened to you during the entire continuation of this bad state, and define it more precisely. All this time you have been under attack from the enemy. And now you know what these attacks are, how they come and how they go away. Therefore, find out in advance when you are subjected to enemy fire. The enemy always disguises himself as the ghost of rightness. But you are not looking at this, but at what is happening in the soul, namely: incessant anxiety and vague uncertainty. From this you can immediately guess that the enemy has approached, and drive him away mercilessly with rejection and prayer. And God's influence is always luminous. It was the Guardian Angel who put a word of consolation into your ears. Learn to obey him, and he will teach you everything. I am very glad that you have taken your own path. And if you please, work on yourself, preparing to go where you plan. The enemy forces you to hurry. He always stirs things up to confuse matters. But God’s progress is peaceful and quiet. There is no other way but to wait. Everything has its time. The hour will come when you will slide downhill on a sled, as I already wrote. You are going to the village and dreaming about the sweets of village life. Good, good! That life has truth. There is no truth in cities, and especially in capitals. All comedies are played here. May God grant you to quickly and safely reach this place where you grew up and were brought up so serenely. How will you remember your stay in the ancient capital?! She taught you a lot of good science, especially in the end she pretty much fried you in a frying pan. In the village you will be an anchorite. I add something of my own to your dreams. Find a natural cave or dig one yourself. On one side, if possible, let there be a small spring, on the other - some kind of fruit tree, in front - a small flower bed. Teach some singing birds to trees and flowers. Get up earlier and, retiring here, together with the birds, sing the glory to the Creator of all things! God bless your path! You might be interested in: