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Heal, Lord, the shame of the enemy! God! Show me Your great mercy and give me weakness from the oppression of the destroyer, for, having ulcerated me, he stands and mocks me! Just as, awakened by the disciples, You tamed the sea with one word of Your mouth, so hear my groaning and cry, tame the waves of passionate movements excited in my soul by the enemy of my salvation. Just as with one touch of the opening of Your garment a bleeding woman was healed and her blood immediately began to flow, so may my soul be healed, from which the enemy constantly exudes currents of sinful thoughts, for the sake of my single touch with faith on You, the Physician of souls and bodies. By healing my members, ulcerated by the enemy, show me the healing power of faith in You, the Healer of all ailments. Make the ulcers not ulcers and cover their place with virtues, so that the enemy, who rejoiced at my death, will be put to shame. Your grace, the Sinless Lamb, who was slain for the salvation of the world and who pacified heaven and earth, will be praised by Your saved and joyful servant! Crying from contemplation of the bitter fate awaiting the sinner When You, our Lord, saw that I had lost Your glory, Your love did not tolerate this. You, having descended through Your birth, Your suffering and Your death on the cross, delivered me from Satan. But here I again sinned, angered You, insulted Your name with the iniquities, sins and atrocities I committed. Woe to me, I was ungrateful and defiled myself with many evil deeds! I cried and shed bitter tears when I came to think about this. It transported me into the fire, led me into a land of horror, transported me into a terrible and terrible abyss, plunged me into flames, plunged me into darkness. My heart felt this, and I sighed with fear and horror at the thought of this relocation. Carrying away my thoughts, I examined the dwelling of darkness. Then, with sobs and tears, grieving and sick, I condemned myself and bitterly exclaimed: “Woe is me, extreme grief! What does the truth have in store for me?” I woke up in horror, as if from a dream, but did not get rid of the torment of my heart. I tore my clothes, cried and sobbed: “What have I done to myself, poor man?” I will open my head, like a harlot I will confess my sins, I will beg with sighs, I will turn my eyes to the fountains of tears to mourn myself, the unfortunate one. I will go to tax collectors like me, I will go to sinners who have repented, I will awaken my sleeping heart, worn out in many evils, I will join them, I will become like them. Like them, I will begin to weep for the sins I have committed, so as not to come to God’s Judgment and not to suffer in the abyss of Gehenna! Grant me, O Lord, to love Your love, in which the saints and righteous find consolation for themselves and do not love anything alien to You, O God, who is kind to the repentant, who loves the sinner who wets his face with tears and bitterly mourns his crime! Grant me, O Lord, that blessed end that You have prepared for all the saints! Our weakness and fickleness and the strength of the saints Be merciful, O Good One, to our evil will, this guilt of all troubles. His thoughts are secret illnesses, and his deeds are obvious illnesses. From him came the first transgression of the commandment, which resulted in all sins. You, Pure One, cleanse our freedom; in itself it is a muddy source. I marvel at our free will: it is strong, and yet it has been overthrown; she is a ruler - and she became a slave; has the opportunity to win - and loves to concede victory over himself; although she is free, she herself is given into slavery, like a slave, and with her own hand she writes consent to her slavery. Blessed be the memory of the righteous who remained steadfast! They did not change like the moon, but were like the sun, whose light is always the same. Their spirit was not like streams of rain that are sometimes full and then suddenly dry up. Waves of temptations of all kinds rushed upon the righteous, but they did not faint. And glory did not puff them up, and reproach did not bring them to despondency. They were always the same - the fragrance of their lofty virtues was never lost. Blessed is the Good One, Who from His treasures exuded the fragrance of their deeds! Blessed is the Just One, Who glorified their exploits with crowns! And the persistent petition is heard subject to the promise of good will Alas, I am ashamed of those who now respect me, so as not to be ashamed before them (there) for my hidden sins, I am ashamed of those who gave birth to me, so that over time they do not condemn me, who made a vow to live not in a worldly way. I want to become like that widow who, after disturbing the judge for a long time, achieved her goal. I want to appear before You, my Most Blessed Master, like a persistent friend, so that You would turn my soul, captivated by sins: he asked for bread to satisfy his hunger, and I ask for spiritual consolation, he asked for carnal food, and I ask for the appeal of the soul. As the Good and Most Good One, hear the voice of my tearful cry and convert me so that I may bear the fruit of repentance! Water the burning of my conscience, renew me, who have grown old in sinful passions, so that, freed from their slavery, I may pleasantly breathe the air of freedom and glorify Your goodness with joy and joy! You know, Master, that I dare to speak this before You with the readiness of my soul to work, however small. For I know, a sinner, that You are gracious, Lord, and want me to change; The fruit of will is also desirable to You: You are ready to have mercy on me, but You are waiting for my good disposition, for, by having mercy, You want to teach me goodness and, by forgiving, You want to make me worthy of the communion of Your Kingdom. Grant me, Lord, when I am awake, to stand before You clean, my Redeemer, and when I sleep, to experience sleep without sin. If, while awake, I commit iniquity, may I be cleansed by Thy grace, Lord, and if I sin while sleeping, may Thy mercy be cleansing to me. By the cross of Thy humiliation make my sleep serene, protect me from lawless sleepy dreams and from unclean ideas of the imagination; grant me to spend the whole night in peaceful sleep, and may evil and vicious thoughts not prevail over me. With Your life-giving Body, which I have eaten, protect me from unclean lust, so that I may lie down and sleep in peace. May Your blood preserve me. And grant to my soul, which is Your image, freedom befitting Your image, and may Your right hand cover my body, created by Your hands. Cover me with the wall of Your bounty, like a defensive shield, and when my body rests and sleeps, let Your goodness be my guard, so that the evil one does not approach my bed. Through the intercession of the Mother who gave birth to You, the sacrifice that You made for everyone, I beg: drive away Satan so that he does not bother me. On me, Lord, fulfill Your promise and protect my life with the cross. I will praise You upon my awakening, because You showed Your love to me, the poor one. And those who sleep, resting in peace, and those who are awake, protected by Thy armor, give praise to Thee, the ever-living Guardian, who aroused me to Thy praise! Ask for forgiveness with tears, but first forgive yourself Thy lips, our Lord, have promised and spoken: “Call and I will hear; knock on the door and I will open.” Like a sinner, we cry to You: “According to the abundant bounties of Your mercy, forgive us our debts and sins!” Like this publican, we beg You and, like a son who squandered his property, we cry out to You with spiritual repentance: “We have sinned to heaven and before You, Lord!” Receive us, as You promised, and may the Guardian Angels and Archangels rejoice over us. You, who accepted Simon’s repentance, accept the repentance of Your servants and have mercy on us! Come, sinner, who has sinned before the Lord, come to Him with spiritual repentance - and He will forgive you your debts and sins. Shed tears at the Doctor's door, beg Him with sighs, show Him the scabs that are on your soul. Guard your tongue from all evil, and let not your lips, which were made for praise, utter a blasphemous word. Forgive your brother if he has sinned against you, and Christ will forgive you, as He promised, according to His mercy. Have mercy on us, our Lord, forgive us our debts and sins and make us worthy of Your most glorious palace! Have mercy before my last befalls me! Before the wheel of time turns for me, have mercy on me. Before the wind of death blows on me and illnesses appear in my body, foreshadowing the imminent end, have mercy. Before the majestic sun dims in height for me, have mercy, and may Your light shine for me from above and may it dispel the terrible darkness of my mind. Before the dust returns to the earth and becomes rotten and all the features of its beauty decay, have mercy. Before my sins preceded me to the Judgment and put me to shame before the Judge, have mercy on me, O Lord, filled with generosity. Before the armies went out, preceding the Son of the King, to gather our poor race to the throne of the Judge, have mercy. Before the trumpet sounds before Your Coming, O our Lord Jesus, have mercy on Your servants who supplicate You and have mercy. Before You closed Your door for me, Son of God, and I became food for the unquenchable fire in Gehenna, have mercy on me. Blessed is he who considers the multitude of those who sleep in the tombs and has rejected every foul lust, for he will rise in glory when the heavenly trumpet sounds, which is to awaken all the sons of men. Blessed is he who has hope not in man, but in the Lord, who will come again with much glory to judge the world in righteousness, for he will be like a tree that grows by the waters, and will not cease to bear fruit. Blessed is he whose mind, by grace, has become like a cloud full of rain, and waters the souls of mortals for the return of the fruits of life, because grace will be his eternal praise. Blessed is he who is always sober according to God, because on the Day of Judgment he will be protected by God Himself and, having become the son of the bridal chamber, he will see the Bridegroom in joy and joy. Blessed is he who has hated and abandoned all human life and whose thoughts are all about the One God. Blessed is he who has hated evil sin and abhors it, but has loved the One Good and Humane-loving God. Blessed is he who on earth resembles a heavenly angel and imitates the seraphim, constantly having immaculate thoughts. 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