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One can say about the gossip that has come out: don’t believe every rumor; what was, was; what was not there is not. But thank God for everything, and be complacent (as you yourself assure about this), and to this we must also add the commandment about loving your enemies, considering them your benefactors; Yes, remember the 20th chapter of St. Isaac the Syrian; “Even if the Lord moves the whole world to us, it will be little for my iniquities,” and in general self-reproach, rather than reproach of others, can more easily calm and take advantage. I asked Father N.; he says that nothing happened, but I advise you to leave it and not worry about it. I don’t know what will happen in the future, but so far I am very pleased with the disposition of Father Abbot, and I have no offense from him; just as he did not insult the deceased priest; and with a heart disease, on the orders of his superiors, he made translations from cells, and even for delaying execution he himself was repeatedly subjected to anger and reprimand. Whoever spoke about this M.P. either lied or looked at the event from the wrong point of view. Now you have fulfilled your vows, you have been honored to visit Kyiv and your father’s grave; Sit at home calmly, peacefully, do not be embarrassed, and do not become faint-hearted from any battles; but recognize your weakness and humble yourself; Nothing can stand against this weapon and all the arrows of the enemy are crushed by it. Instill this in your sisters as well, so that they will take care of gaining humility, and avoid gossip and judgments. May the Lord look upon your good will and send down His help, to whose omnipotent protection entrusting you and your sisters, O., I., Yu., S. and so on, I remain your unworthy pilgrim, the much-sinful I.M. August 11, 1842. You might be interested in: