306. Пристрастия к старице не бойся. Понуждай себя к молитве. Тоску потерпи, не отчаивайся

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. I received your letter. Please do not be offended that I did not respond to my previous letter. Apparently, there was nothing to answer, and I can’t answer any letter. Ask the treasurer what you need and listen to her. Don't be afraid of passion. If you receive benefit and peace of mind from the old woman, then there is no partiality here, even if you love her. But there is addiction, where the monks give you tea, read novels, and then unclean thoughts confuse you. Force yourself to pray, humble yourself more and do not judge others. Endure the melancholy, don’t despair, God willing, it will pass. Don’t go to that monastery without the blessing of M. Treasurer. Peace to you and God's blessing. You might be interested in: