305. Если видишь, что становишься хуже – не унывай. Привыкай к монастырской пище

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. I wish you spiritual salvation. Don’t trust your desire too much, but rely on the will of God, as God will arrange it. If Mother takes you, then come, but don’t crowd too much. Be patient, and it will be beneficial. Don’t be discouraged because you go to revelations and see that you are getting worse. It’s nothing, just try to humble yourself more, reproach yourself and not judge others. And if you see yourself as better, then this can be bad. It's good to see your sins and shortcomings, not corrections. Do not accept these thoughts that Mother is more involved with others and less with you. It is the enemy who confuses you, and if you accept these thoughts, you will never be at peace. It’s better to get used to monastery food, but not to wish for better. Otherwise, gluttony may develop, and this is also passion. The Lord will bless your sister and help her. Peace to you and God's blessing. You might be interested in: