231. Немощное тело не надо нудить сверх силы. Если сестры смущаются, то это [от] вражьяго искушения

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. Sister in the Lord M. Magdalene! I wish you God's mercy and spiritual salvation. I received your letter. May the Lord forgive you for your mistakes. Don't be lazy to repent. Even if you had to repent ten times a day, repent all the time, for it is said: “Whatever I find, that is what I will judge.” May God grant that He finds you in repentance too. Mother may not have opened your letter, but if it’s yours, then, apparently, it’s God’s will. If getting little sleep is detrimental to your health, then you need to give yourself some rest. A weak body should not be forced beyond its strength. And the prayer must be finished, albeit sluggishly, but with compulsion. And after “Cherubimskaya” it’s awkward to come to mass. It’s good that you thought that your confessor was denouncing you, but here you should confess and humble yourself, and not be offended. Otherwise it seemed like pride. Don’t hold a grudge in your heart and don’t remember grudges for a long time, God be with him. Slander will not harm Mother, but rather will bring benefit to her soul. And try not to judge him for this. Try not to pay attention to his actions. Don’t pay attention to your sisters’ embarrassment that you treat them differently, and you shouldn’t assure them of this. And the enemy presents this to them, let them not believe him. Yes, this is also the effect of envy. The temptation happened from intemperance, the first one is to blame. Apparently, to humility. My health is just as weak, but I don’t get sick and I work out, sometimes a lot. I send blessings to M. Evstolia, Pasha and Varvara Vladimirovna and wish them salvation and peace, external and internal. Calling upon you peace and God’s blessing, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: