230. Не поддавайся лености и чрезмерному сну. Неприязнь к кому-либо происходит от самолюбия. Читать лучше понятное и полезное для себя

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. Sister in the Lord M. Magdalene! I wish you God's mercy and spiritual salvation. I received two letters from you. May the Lord forgive the errors and omissions due to laziness that you described. You should not give in to laziness, nor should you succumb to excessive sleep, but you must force yourself according to your strength and ask for help from the Lord. And in case of malfunctions, always bring repentance. For repentance with humility replaces the deed. It is good to endure unpleasant things in silence if this unpleasant thing does not harm others and only concerns you. And if others suffer or suffer through this, then we can humbly remind you. And if they get upset with you, at least don’t upset yourself. Bear it with humility, condemning yourself and trying not to have resentment in your heart. Maybe there is still a dislike for the cell attendant in your heart - you need to repent of this and try to destroy such a feeling. It would be better to go to the Midnight Office, at least as an example to others. Unless you are very tired from the day's troubles, then you can give yourself some relief, but with self-reproach. What did she think of her sister, why didn’t she want to come to me, and if there was a feeling of dissatisfaction at the same time, then this passion of pride made itself felt. You can enjoy something after your meal and quench your thirst with something. When you cannot abstain, then at least we will humble ourselves and reproach ourselves, and not condemn others. My health is fine, although I’m a little weak, but apparently the summer is taking its toll. Our weather is summer, there is only frost. I send a blessing to Evstolia, Pasha and Varvara Vladimirovna. It is very good that they live in peace. May God help them to always live like this. I sent a letter to Varvara Vladimirovna. It is better to read what is understandable for yourself and useful for your organization. You can also read the Philokalia, if you wish. Calling upon you peace and God’s blessing, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: