178. Понуждай себя к исполнению заповедей и монашеских обетов. Против нечистых помыслов употребляй духовный меч – имя Божие. Не должно скрывать помыслы от духовного отца

I wish you God's mercy and spiritual salvation. You write that everything is wrong. We must always bring repentance to the Lord for our shortcomings and force ourselves to fulfill the commandments of the Lord and monastic vows. At the same time, one must also look at oneself as being faulty, and consider oneself worse and more sinful than everyone else, and humble oneself before the Lord in one’s heart. Humility replaces lack of action. Use the spiritual sword against unclean thoughts—the name of God. Repentance must be brought to the Lord. One should not hide it from one’s spiritual father. The announced scabs will soon heal. May the Lord help you in your labors. Asking for peace and God's blessing on you, I remain with the desire for salvation You might be interested in: