177. Исполнять поклоны надо по уставу Церкви. Под видом немощи иногда скрывается леность. Высшую степень молитвы нельзя проходить без опытного наставника

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. Rejoice in the Lord, most venerable Mother Magdalene! I received your letter, in which you describe your weaknesses, bewilderments, and frustration with the cell attendant. About Mother Superior. “It won’t do you any good if you showed my letters or talked about them to the Mother Superior.” What is this for? You are not reconciled against the cell attendant of Mother Superior. - It’s obvious that you are not peaceful out of envy. This should not happen - envy. M. Abbess treats her well, and this annoys you. There is no need to boast in front of others. In the eyes of God, she may be more valuable than you. Pray for each other so that you may be healed. You need to be more careful regarding your thoughts and cry out with tears: “Lord, before I even completely perish, save me.” You need to treat your cell wisely, and obey obedience unquestioningly. Perform bows according to the rules of the Church, and not according to your own wisdom. There is an exception for the sake of weakness, but laziness is sometimes hidden under the guise of weakness. According to “Our Father” you can say “Prayers of St. father". You ask about prayer. How to create it? - Whenever you want. But during absent-mindedness, with your lips in an undertone, that is, your ears would hear. And when thoughts and everything in general are peaceful, then it’s better with the mind, with attention. Keep your oral prayer more attentive. About the highest degree of prayer. “You can’t go through it on your own, without an experienced mentor.” You can always do verbal prayer during any activity, including in church. Write in more detail about the progress of the prayer. You might be interested in: