78. Искушение со стороны несправедливости и напраслин от посторонних. Терпение их. Предупреждение желающим уйти из дома родителей на свободу

God's mercy be with you! Again?! Injustice, lies! This must be from somewhere outside. But no matter where they are, I tell you: do not only take courage and be strong, but also rejoice. This means your spiritual work is going well. The Lord leads you to purification, and the enemy meets a strong rival in you. Stand your ground firmly. There is nothing to be embarrassed by injustices and lies. Whoever inflicts them is judged by God, and whoever inflicts them should endure them complacently and thank God. Don’t forget that there is another life in which everything here will respond, either in praise or in reproach. Will you endure injustice? There will be praise. Can't you bear it? Reproach. There you won’t say: “But it’s unfair.” “Whether it’s fair or not is not your business,” they will say, “to judge. Why couldn’t you bear it?!” No injustices come from God, but they are allowed by God for the good of those upon whom they are allowed. Truly for the good! This is not a simple phrase, but a real deal. I give you the example of martyrs. No matter how they were tyrannized. What about the Lord? He was right there, apparently appeared to them, consoled them, eased their suffering, but still left them in torment - to endure until the end, in order to be crowned with a complete crown. So every untruth and every vain prepares the crown. But the one on whom they fall must endure them. This need has now hit you too. And if you please, endure it complacently, no matter what you have. This is what God wants from you for your own good. You say: “It’s scary to give yourself over to untruths for a whole century.” Of course it's scary. Then it is said to the one who follows the Lord: “Take courage and let your heart be strong” (Ps. 26:14)! There is a cross ahead. It turns out that there is nothing left to do but give yourself over to sorrows, deprivations and vain lies. In this surrender, I tell you, is the beginning of the true path. Will you give yourself to this? The very minute you give, follow the Lord. Please discuss all this and decide in God’s way. All success comes from the proper solution of this point. And you rushed out of your parents’ house, and you didn’t even know where, feeling as if there was some kind of constraint on their part. It is the duty of parents to watch over you; They watch, I think, like the apple of their eye. If this goes against your wishes in another way, you must submit. It is unfair to see in them only a desire to stand on their own, but it is more natural to see here a desire to protect you and protect you from everything. And this is the fruit of love. With confidence in this, sweeten the bitterness of submission if it is felt in you due to your rebellion. With this submission you must repay what you receive in the family. Food, clothing, shelter - although this is not a small thing, it is not the main thing. The main thing is to protect yourself from external troubles. Eagle wings cover you. The eagle's beak and talons are ready to defeat anyone who tries to cause you insult or trouble. This benefit is irreplaceable. As soon as the eagle covering you is no longer there, they will peck you. Now no one has an attack, but then everyone will attack. You cannot imagine how great the horror of defenselessness is, because you have not experienced it. And God forbid you test him. Is there protection? Take care of it or don't break out from under it. From under it, you also need to go back under protection - either within the walls of the monastery, or in the community of sisters of mercy. And to enter the fight alone - no, no, no. They'll peck you and you won't find a place. What does it mean that your impulse for freedom is expressed so strongly? This is a bad impulse. Your path has already been determined. Where should we go? Have you determined what you want, so desiring freedom for yourself? There is nothing to seek for inner freedom, for it already exists, since it is an integral part of the spirit. Nobody can take her away. It turns out that you want external freedom. But please consider to what extent is such freedom permissible and achievable? Wherever you go, everywhere you will be surrounded by the same freedoms as yours, equal to your freedom. Whatever we decide to do, we must always consider our actions with the actions of other people and limit ourselves by them and, therefore, restrict our freedom. Every step is a suppression of freedom. And, moreover, it is legal, against which one cannot object, according to one’s own consciousness. If this is so, then the impulse for freedom is chasing the rainbow and, even worse, the desire to grab a ghost. So in general, with you it makes a thousand times more sense. If you please, tame your impulses. Let children listen to their parents and with their advice, let them arrange their affairs and their lives, obeying them willingly. Here's the law of freedom! What are you making a wish for? I’ll rush there, I’ll rush here, and no one dares say. A true emancipator! Look, aren't you sick of pride? All emancipated women are proud. Rush somewhere, what's the trick? We constantly see those trying, but we don’t see any of them happy. What is the point in such impulses? Nothing, just one fanfare: “Stay away! I want it so much! Who is my decree? And these orderless ones strive without looking back, and without looking at their feet, until they plummet into the abyss from which there is no way out. Please take this into account when you have impulses: I will do this, I will decide to do that. One of your intentions is very good. And, perhaps, isn’t it an indication of how to arrange your life? I mean joining the sisters of mercy. But that it is revealed among such disorderly impulses is not good. There are still no indications of how to get settled. And wait, as I have written more than once. The Lord will arrange everything. Your nest is warm and cozy. Sit in it until the time comes to fly out. You might be interested in: