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One should be very wary of dreams, and even more so, interpret them and accept them as the truth, like N—ia’s mother. The blasphemy against you comes from a malicious enemy in order to turn her away from her faith towards you; and then his intrigues could cause her no harm; - and this is not according to your shrine, but according to her faith: God acts even in the unworthy; just like you, and others like you, blind, thinking of receiving benefit through me: but this, through your faith, God himself acts, through my unworthiness; and this can serve to my greater condemnation, unless through their prayers the Lord raises me to repentance. You see for yourself: isn’t this a betrayal of the right hand of the Most High, that the mother abbess has become more peaceful towards you, when before they could not even think about this; Keep this world with self-reproach, and avoid the contempt of your neighbors: everyone will give an answer to God about their deeds; when the Father does not judge anyone, but gives all judgment to the Sons (John 5:22), then we, blind judges, will not find ourselves answerable at judgment, even if we ourselves were sinless. Your sister X. or N.’s fear, after tonsure, is very unfounded and dangerous: where one should rejoice, having taken on this image, although still imperfect, they have already been counted among the virgins working for God; but she is afraid, and she doesn’t know why. It seems that obvious ones are signs of arrogance. From our experience we do not dare to present an example, but we see it in people more than once: what joy and consolation there is for them, and for those who look at them; As soon as we understand the mysteries and power, then we should not rejoice, but fear. I can’t remember many examples from the lives of the saints, the father, but Simeon and John, his faster, can sufficiently point out that it is not fear, but joy that this image brings. St. writes enough about dreams, so as not to believe them. John Climacus; St. Peter of Damascus, after seven works, writes to turn away from every dream. In Cassian's letter to Leontin, the abbot, it is said about a monk who was deceived by dreams and fell into Judaism. Yes, clearly this is the beauty of it, because these dreams raise and support imaginary holiness, and not to humble oneself and be worse than everyone else. There are many other things in the scriptures about this, but I can’t remember; I haven’t read books for a long time – I don’t have time. May God Himself enlighten you on what else to write for its benefit. On my journey, I was in P-y and in S-y, in K-y and in K-y, and back I found in Oy the nunnery all burnt down, not a single cell remained, and the Church was burned, the bells and domes were asleep, and 36 of the best secular houses were burned; but the fire started not from the monastery, but from the secular house. Now they are poor, without shelter, and it is unreliable that they will get settled again soon. This is involuntary sorrow; but apparently we need it for salvation: God’s providence is incomprehensible to us! I remain the sinful I.M. June 8, 1843. You might be interested in: