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I have received many of your letters, but I cannot answer them in detail and frankly; As I already wrote to you, I can’t trust paper with everything; You are not yet built and not founded, as you should, on the solid stone of faith, but you are agitated by the great wind - this and ovamo. My letters written to you should not have been shown to T... due to her still imperfect recovery, but you did this, which cannot serve her well, much less you. You write that you go to T... for revelation, and do not try to purge anger from your heart against M.A. and L. - All our actions without humility and love are insignificant; This is what obedience and revelation are for, in order to acquire these most necessary virtues. I don’t know why you try to find out the future when God hasn’t revealed it to us? You ask I. I..., and when you receive answers that are not entirely decisive and unsatisfactory, you cannot be without embarrassment; when you were in the world, it would be lenient for you: but having entered the monastery, you should no longer resort to such questions, but be guided by other rules, and more by cutting off your will and reason. Until M. T... is completely healthy, you must not bother her with unnecessary questions, so that, instead of your benefit, you do not cause her more harm; her illness is incomprehensible to you. I wish you to know the true life of our image, and to see your own sins, and not those of your neighbors. I remain a wisher for your health and salvation, much-sinful I.M. December 29, 1854. You might be interested in: