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Saturday of Holy Week. I thank You, Lord, for Your great powers, revealed in me, a sinner, several times during the all-night vigil, graciously, quickly, victoriously, clearly, majestically, through my prayer and for Your cleansing, and for the power of salvation by Your right hand at home, after evening tea, at evening prayer. Behold, save me, O Lord, all the days of my life. Wake up! Amen. Oh, what peace, what greatness, boldness, freedom of spirit you have granted me, Lord, through my prayer for the cleansing of my sins! What a bold prayer you put into my heart! For everything, glory to You! But this is not great, since you have put in such a prayer - this is great, if you fulfill it: fulfill it, for everything is possible for You. My prayer was for Your people and for me, a sinner. God! Let me not stand at Thy throne. Why does the Lord punish us painfully and severely punish us for our addiction to the things of this world? - May He give us eternal, inalienable property of Himself: He gave ecu property to those who fear You, Lord [Ps. 60, 6]. For this reason, He turns us away from all our sins and passions, punishes us for them, so that He may give Himself as our property, for what is the communion of righteousness with lawlessness?.. between Christ and Belial? (2 Cor. 6, 14 – 15). The same devil who sometimes does not allow me to be sincere before God does not allow me to be sincere, warm, and simple-hearted both before my mother and before my father. But before whom is it safer and more natural, easier and more convenient to humble yourself, if not before your father and mother? Humility is the life of the soul, union with the Spirit of God; pride is death, combination with the devil. The Lord loves humility, just as He Himself is meek and humble. The same devil, who in church sometimes does not allow me to sincerely ask the parishioners for forgiveness of sins, does not allow me to sincerely humble myself before my mother. Resurrection of Fomino. I thank you, Lord, for your success in serving the liturgy: I received communion for the remission of sins and peace of spiritual strength, and preached the sermon with the Spirit of God. What do people [...] look for in educated people? A kind, warm heart, affection, greetings, sincerity, meekness, humility, kindness. And all this is most [found] in ordinary people. Have faith in Jesus Christ our Lord of glory, regardless of personalities [Jas. 2, 1]. All children of God and Christ by baptism and communion of the Body and Blood of Jesus Christ: both simple and noble, educated and uneducated. We, many, are one body (1 Cor. 10:17). As the fragrance of a censer is brought before the altar, so should you bring before it the fragrance of the heart - the fragrance of kindness, meekness, humility, purity and chastity, non-covetousness, love of abstinence and fasting, brotherly love, patience. Just as a burning piece of wood is brought before God, [decomposing] incense, so bring before God that which burns with faith and love for God, the triumphant Church and weak humanity fighting on earth with the enemies of salvation, your heart, so that you will be pleasing to God, so that your prayer may easily and quickly rise to God, like incense. As a soft and round, two-part prosphora is brought to the altar, so let your thought be transferred more often to the incarnation of the Son of God for your sake and to the union in Him of two natures, Divine and human, and to the deification of your nature, and in accordance with your high calling and position, try to live on earth, preparing yourself for heavenly life; acquire respect for every person whose nature in Christ is deified and seated in heaven, on the throne of the Divine, especially for Christians, as members of Christ; be patient and long-suffering to their weaknesses, as the weak one himself; do not be arrogant, do not be irritated with them, for tell me: will you be arrogant over Christ, or will you be irritated with Christ? For he who exalts himself above his Christian brother exalts himself above Christ Himself! Just as a soft, white, strong prosphora is brought to the altar, so you bring to God tenderness, sincerity, constancy of Christian virtue (eternity, immutability), firmness of heart - not a guileful heart, not a disposition that changes to evil. Disregard appearances - pay all attention to the inside, to your heart. The enemy tempts us with the persons and things around us every day, with which we deal every day: our household, for example, children or relatives, servants: money, food, drink, clothing, furniture, dishes - therefore we must be extremely attentive and careful regarding these persons and things: not to be angry with anyone, not to feel sorry for anyone, not to have passion for anyone or anything, especially to be moderate in food and drink. A priest, according to his rank, must truly be heavenly, loving towards everyone, meek, humble, submissive, temperate, and not covetous. We all think about enjoying earthly blessings and almost don’t think about the future life, as if we have to live here forever, and we don’t correct ourselves from our bad inclinations, habits, passions, we don’t strive for holiness of life, we don’t think about death, but death can suddenly befall us, and maybe it’s very, very close to many of us. Do not be irritated with a brother who sins, for it is human nature to sin and stumble (judge others according to your weakness), and besides, is a mistake corrected by malice? Is it not meekness and humility and admonition? It was not in vain that the Lord chose you and made you a priest and with such goodness brought you closer to Himself, accepting you into close communication with Him - and you, taught by your own example, do not look at faces, but honor everyone, not despising anyone: the simple, the uneducated, the beggars - as well as the rich and noble, the sick and crippled, the ugly and ugly - as well as the healthy and handsome. Make sure that the prayer is always fresh, clear, strong, and sparkling. Preserve the delicacy of your heart - eat little: overeating makes the heart coarse and stout. Observe constantly with what heart you stand before the Lord: do you constantly look with the eyes of your heart to the Lord, do you heartily heed the words of the prayer, do you sincerely desire the good from the Lord for those classes and persons for whom you pray, do you sincerely desire those blessings for which you ask the Lord, are you not praying hypocritically? Stale prosphora means your hard heart: what kind of heart do you bring to the Lord every day? Your heart is bread for the Lord: what kind of heart do you offer to Him? Bear with yourself the insult inflicted on your neighbors, and do not get angry, do not violate peace and love. And for the sake of the Lord, be complacent, without malice, overcome evil with good. It is our old, evil, sin-stinking heart that demands honor from others, and not the new man, who, the more perfect he is, the more he humbles himself before his neighbor and is ready to serve everyone, to please - [even] the last beggar. Therefore, you must despise your ambitious and deceitful heart and humble yourself in every possible way, bearing the burden of your neighbor complacently. Pray for the king as the image of the King of kings. How crazy it is to lose peace, to be disturbed in spirit and to disturb the blood because of anything material! Peace is truly good. We are constantly defiled - the Lord cleanses us, we are constantly sick with sins - He heals us, we are wounded by passions - He heals our ulcers, we are darkened - He enlightens, we worry - He takes away anxiety and gives us peace, we forget - He brings us to memory: He constantly and in every possible way does good to us. A satiated heart is insensitive, cold, fearless in relation to God, proud, rude, impudent in relation to one’s neighbor. You don't need to eat much. Consider yourself as nothing, elevate everyone; My name, say, is insignificance, weakness, sinful abomination. And speak the truth humbly, that is, meekly, maintaining respect for the person being accused. When you are united with God and stand with your heart in the truth, then consider yourself to be something great, but for the sake of the Lord and in the Lord, and do not exalt yourself before anyone, but again humble yourself before everyone, considering yourself in yourself to be nothing. Why does it happen that even though passions run wild in our hearts, although they butt, cut, and torment us, we still follow them? From sinful corruption and our self-love. You have to hate yourself, deny yourself. It is necessary to stop delicacy, excessive eating, and the desire for honor to cut off. Pray harder. Look how you treat every simple and educated person - is it from a sincere heart? God! Behold, my enemy turns everything into a reason for anger towards his neighbor. Have mercy on me! Teach me meekness and kindness, patience and long-suffering. Let me turn everything into a reason for love - every mistake of my brother, intentional and unintentional. Do not look at me, mother, in the house as a priest and master, but as a son and accept respect as from a son, and in church look at me as a priest. For the name “mother” I sacrifice my household as well. We are all one body in the Lord, according to Scripture [Rom. 12, 5]. Trust neither the eye, nor the hearing, nor the touch, nor the taste, nor the thoughts, nor the feelings (neither the mind nor the heart), when they will inspire something contrary to this truth of the word of God, for example, when the sight will incite contempt for your neighbor for his appearance or for something else, or to malice, or the thought and feeling will slyly inspire that such and such does not deserve love, but enmity or disrespect and contempt for something that is in us and that we do not want to notice in ourselves. Respect everyone, honor everyone, love the brotherhood (1 Pet. 2:17), for we are all brothers in Christ, we are all secret, intimate, of the same nature. Oh, how the enemy tries to turn everything into hostility! A neighbor comes to eat bread and salt, tea, coffee, sugar, or a beggar asks for alms - and arouses bitter enmity against him in his heart. But do not listen to him, the enemy, but always show love to your neighbor, for love will be repaid to you from God and your neighbor, and if not from your neighbor, then from God - and you should always consider it a great happiness to serve God in the person of your neighbor, who is His image, to Christ Himself in His members. Let us be put to shame in every possible way by the enemy who besets us with enmity, let us be at enmity against him, but not against our neighbor, let us strive in every possible way to show love to our neighbor, and let us regard everything earthly as disgrace. Speak willingly and kindly to your family, answer questions and ask questions yourself. In general, sometimes it is very useful and necessary to conduct and maintain a conversation in order to drive away from the heart evil despondency and vain, that is, vain anger at one’s neighbor, pride, and contempt. We are verbal beings and must have communication in the word. How much lower is a son, like a son, than his mother? As far as a fruit is smaller than a tree, or as a subordinate is lower than a superior, or as a subject is lower than a king, for children are subjects of their parents, and parents have great rights over them. The blessing of parents strengthens the foundations of houses, therefore children owe great respect to their parents and, if for nothing else, then for their own benefit they should sincerely honor them, for those who honor their parents, the Lord said, will do well, and they will live long on earth [Ex. 20, 12]. What a humble mother, like my mother! What mother kisses the hand of her son, even a priest, what mother is so meek, humble, kind, patient, simple-hearted, kind-hearted, affectionate as my mother? Bless her, Lord, and with her prayers bless and have mercy on me. Why does the soul rejoice when receiving a reward? From a secret premonition of future reward for deeds and future joy from this, and also from the satisfaction of her innate sense of honor, as well as the feeling of covetousness - however, covetousness is a self-perverted desire to enrich oneself with virtues, or good deeds, by fulfilling the laws of the Lord. So, our soul is not mistaken in rejoicing in the reward of the king or in general from those in authority or from our parents. She anticipates a future reward from the Father of lights and future joy from this. Sweets greatly spoil the heart when we need to pray with the people, when we need to help the poor, console the sad, grieve the unfortunate. Then we feel coldness towards God and neighbor, deceitfulness of the heart, slavery. [Father] You. Mikheevich gave me a good idea. I told him: people who get used to it come to me every day and ask for alms, and he said: it doesn’t only happen to people, but also to animals, birds and fish: where the pigeons are fed, that’s where they live. But how much better is a man than a dove? Shouldn’t it be considered an honor to nourish someone created in the image of God? Do not remember evil and do not say in yourself: I would do him or her such and such a favor, a favor, but he or she did this or that to me, or: he or she is such and such or such (proud, evil, slanderer, gossip, ill-wisher, ill-wisher, although this may not be proven), or: I would do good to such and such a person, but he or she is a friend or a friend of my ill-wisher, or [...], - because of this I don’t want to do her mercy. No, don’t say that, but do good, forgetting all evil and conquering evil with good. If you do good to those who do good to you, what gratitude do you have for that? [ OK. 6, 33]. Radonitsa. He served late mass alternately. I thank Thee, Lord, for Thy great powers shown on me, the accursed one, this day during mass, during the prayer service of thanksgiving for saving the sovereign from the hands of a murderer 72 and in the gymnasium during two grades, fourth and sixth. I thank You, for you do not put me to shame in anything, unworthy, but you act victoriously and boldly. God! Keep me in Your simplicity. God! You are my endless life; You want me to be carefree in You, so that I do not care about everything earthly, caring with all my heart, as it is worthy and righteous, about You and about human souls. (And now, Lord, You have saved me by the simplicity of Your name, contained in my heart. I felt sorry for a moment for the sweets of my neighbors.) Teach your grandmother to suck eggs; so am I a mother. She is her own mistress (and me too). Yes, I remember my dependence on her. Otherwise, we will lean a little and become proud. But how meek, humble, simple, kind, patient she is - a baby! And I am so proud that for what I should deeply respect her, I despise her, for what I especially love, I hate her. O corruption of the heart! Oh, the wrong side, the perversion! Despise yourself, hate yourself. This will be fair. Crucify your old man, your corrupt heart, hate, despise. Oh, I am an abomination, an abomination! This is who I am, and all that is decent in me, worthy of imitation, is God’s grace; and this not of yourselves, it is the gift of God: not of works, lest any man should boast [Eph. 2, 8–9]. Sober up young and learned, secular people with a bold, strict word of reproof, like a shepherd, with authority: the Lord will enlighten them - He knows how, just speak. Dream. Officers. They will be grateful. It is necessary not to servile (young or old) scientists and secular people living in pleasure and wealth, but to denounce them with authority and boldly; not to have false shame before them when performing the rites of faith and when performing the Sacraments, and even more boldly and with greater awareness of the importance of the holy work being performed, with greater boldness to perform the rites and Sacraments. Despise worldly splendor, worldly vanity, worldly prudence and sober it up. A true friend is one who grieves in misfortune, comforts in sorrow, helps in need, and not one who comes to us to eat and drink sweetly, who is disposed towards us for our bread and salt. When misfortune happens to us, he will leave us, will not provide sincere sympathy, help, will not shed consolation into our soul, because due to his voluptuousness there will be nothing to say from the Holy Spirit of the Comforter. One who lives in voluptuousness cannot sincerely sympathize with one who lives in poverty and misfortune: his heart is hot for sweets, for wealth and for the rich, but cold for the mourning and the poor. Therefore we must despise sweets and wealth. I serve God - God will help. Pray unceasingly (1 Thess. 5:17), because if the soul does not exude the aroma of prayer, it will exude the stench of passionate thoughts, feelings of malice and pride, envy, stinginess, covetousness and others, sinful words and deeds. We want to shine, but we ourselves are dark. What is the charming shine on the outside when there is no light inside? Acquire inner light - then God will glorify the outside. Where you need to do things directly and simply, the devil teaches you to think and reason. The commandment says directly: honor your father and mother [Exod. 20, 12], and the enemy teaches you to think about how to honor, to make such or other signs of respect, and only steals time and distracts you from your work - and pours your poison into the heart. Sorrows sober up, awaken us from sinful sleep, therefore they are useful, although they are painful for us. If sorrows are very strong, we should complain not about fate, not about God, but about our sinful ulcers and bless the hand of Providence, which strikes us with sorrows to strengthen our spirit in piety. Everything earthly is perishable by nature, and, in addition, man has put the stamp of his sinful corruption on almost everything earthly; therefore, everything earthly should be an object not of desire, but of disgust, but the object of sincere desire should be God, union with Him and imperishable life in heaven. Always eat less rather than more. How perverse and miserable earthly life is: today or at this hour we have fun - in an hour or tomorrow we cry; today we are prosperous - tomorrow we are unhappy, or even after an hour of prosperity - misfortune: we are away somewhere - we are robbed, taking away everything we relied on, or we suddenly get sick, or one of our relatives dies - under various circumstances there are tears of despair, or a fire destroys our property, or we drown in the waves, sailing somewhere, or an evil person deprives us of property, honor, freedom. Oh, what a perverse, perishable life! How perverse earthly life is! You hid these things from the wise and prudent and revealed them to babes; Hey, Father! for such was Your good pleasure [Matt. 11, 25 – 26]. The wise ages of this age are not worth the revelations of God because of their wickedness and pride - the simple and uneducated ages of this age, not spoiled by its wickedness, are worthy of the revelations of God through their pride, and we ourselves, people, must respect in simple people the simplicity and virginity of their souls and learn from them their simplicity, kindness and patience. If a person eats with pleasure from you, it means that he has a need to eat: let him eat for health, for pleasure, in the simplicity of his heart, calmly, freely, independently, as if he were his own, for he is the king of the earth. During Lent, do not drink wine, especially champagne. Do not make mixtures. Don't drink wine at all. My head hurts. Don't drink strong tea. Millet porridge with almond milk is not very healthy: it is heavy. The vessel, they say, is full and inflated: if you hold it, you will be unwell. Don't listen. You will be healthy. What is very sweet in the mouth is also sweet in the loins; what burns in the mouth, for example wine, will burn in the loins and will invite fornication. Consume sweets and wine very moderately; If possible, don't drink at all. Do not indulge in baths often: lust breeds. Eat as little jam as possible. Sweet jelly is harmful without almond milk - it is astringent. However, excess is harmful, but moderation is good. Eat and drink little sweets. My scrofula is capricious, it doesn’t like this and that: it will seethe, it will make you feel sick. She, by the way, is the reason for my vague and irritable character. But, Master, Your strength is in weakness everywhere. Raw salmon with pepper, vinegar and good Lafite strengthens the body very well, while sweets and mealy soups relax. I thank You, Lord, for You have given me a guardian wife. I thank You, for You provide for me in all the smallest things, and have commanded me to be sad about nothing; I thank You, for You have created everything for the need and benefit of the working people. And in this I see Your Providence, as if You have given me a wife of high bodily chastity - not because of my deeds, for I have been a fornicator from my youth. Tea, coffee, and chocolate without bread and meat soup, even with stew, swells the stomach and relaxes the body, especially when consumed with cream. Not drinking coffee is harmful: your back hurts. They commanded the G... household not to cook it, lest our hearts grow white. You have to look at the fruit of teaching: what fruit will it bring? Geography, history, Latin. Blinov has a pleasant voice and sings along nicely. On April 4, 1866, Dmitry Karakozov made an unsuccessful attempt on the life of Emperor Alexander II. You might be interested in: