734. Паче всего берегись своей воли и своего хотения

I wish you spiritual salvation. May the Lord give you everything that leads to salvation: patience, obedience, renunciation of your will and, most of all, humility! There is no need to be burdened by obedience, even if it is truly vain, because it is still obedience. Above all, beware of your will and your desires. If you are patient in your service, you will also receive Marya’s share, but taking it prematurely may not be beneficial. I myself am in front of people all day long. If you don’t have the opportunity to fulfill the five-hundredth anniversary or you become unwell, you also don’t need to be discouraged, but you need to reproach yourself for the omission, repent of this and humble yourself, considering yourself incapable and lazy. The Lord looks upon our humility. Try to remember God while running, repeating the Jesus Prayer to yourself as much as possible. Why flatter and fawn before you? Or maybe it has some meaning for them, then it is very unpleasant. Consider yourself the last one with Fr. Try not to have the abbot and your voice before him. This is the most expensive. Be patient and patient, and pray to God: the Lord sees and knows what is good for you. Calling upon you the peace and blessing of God, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: