633. Исправление надо начинать с покаяния. Спасение – не в мантии, а в добрых делах. Иди путем смирения и терпения. Тесный монашеский путь оканчивается на небе

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. Rejoice in the Lord, beloved child of Christ! I received your letter, in which you describe your mistakes, weaknesses, and bewilderments. May God forgive you, my child. Are you asking where to start fixing it? - From repentance. And the Lord spoke the first sermon about repentance: “Repent.” Patience of occasional sorrows that happen by God's permission, self-reproach, humility, non-judgment of others... and what I list. Why are you not paying attention to what Christ teaches? Verb: “Learn from Me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” Concerning tonsure into the secret mantle. Leave worrying about this for now. The main salvation is not in the mantle, but in good deeds. If you force yourself to correct yourself to the best of your ability, then the Lord, seeing your labors and humility, will leave all your sins and in due time will grant you the mantle and Christian death. Calm down, dear. Tread through humility and patience. It is difficult for you to suppress the thought of the world, that is, of your relatives. Of course, it’s difficult, but what can you do, you need to fight. Such is the narrow monastic path, which begins on earth and ends in paradise in heaven. God help me. I ask for you and M. Justinia the mercy of God, peace, health of soul and body, and God’s blessing. You might be interested in: