623. О будущем много не раздумывай, а полагайся на Промысл Божий. О монастырской пище. О прежних грехах надо покаяние приносить, а в подробностях вспоминать не надо

I wish you God's mercy and spiritual salvation. I received your letter, where you write that you complained about not receiving an answer to your letters. All your letters have been received, but it is impossible to respond soon, you need to be patient. Now I am writing in order. For your congratulations on St. Resurrection of Christ and also Happy Angel Day, Lord save. I also thank M. Justinia for her congratulations. 1 rub. received from you, God save you for your zeal. May the Lord have mercy on your aunt, the sick Varvara, and heal her from her illness, and may this illness serve her for the better, for spiritual health. Regarding money, it seems that it was already written to you. If you can cut expenses, then cut them, then you can ask for less money. And if it’s difficult for you to cut down, then use as much as they send. And pray to God for your parent, so that the Lord will help him in his affairs. Perhaps you will be in Optina, if the Lord wills it. Don’t think too much about the future, but rely on God’s Providence: the Lord knows what is good for us and does it according to His will. Pray and submit to His will. If sometimes you do not act like a monk, then you need to reproach yourself for this, and humble yourself, and bring repentance. If they send you gifts, you shouldn’t refuse them, but you can use them in moderation. If the monastic food is rough for you, then sometimes you can cook your own, but only so that it is in accordance with the rules, so that when fish is not included in the meal, then you should not eat in the cell. You need to repent of past sins, but you don’t need to remember the details. With your new tenant, may everything be peaceful and quiet with God’s help. I received gifts, God forbid. Asking for peace and God's blessing on you, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: