500. Старайся истреблять гордость и приучайся к смирению. Читая книги, увидишь свое устроение и познаешь немощи. Не оправдывайся и не лукавь, а обвиняй во всем себя и проси прощения. Чтобы научиться смирению, слушайся старших и живи по благословению

I wish you spiritual salvation. You write that you felt that there was pride in you, then this is absolutely true, and you must try to destroy it and learn to humble yourself. One should not be despondent, but one must repent of not correcting oneself and try to improve, and humble oneself more and more in order to consider oneself more sinful than everyone else, and not condemn anyone, and endure all kinds of sorrows. But you need to read books, then you will see your dispensation and you will know your weaknesses. You shouldn’t make excuses or be disingenuous, but you should blame yourself for everything and ask for forgiveness - get used to this. You must obey your elders in everything and do not create according to your own will, but according to blessing - this is how you learn humility. Always try to correct the rule; if you fail to do so diligently, what should you do? If you want to go to Mother again, then that’s good. And humble yourself before her, and ask her for forgiveness, and try to obey her. She won't tell you anything other than good things. And if something doesn’t happen your way, then you have to be patient and again you have to humble yourself. Without humility it is difficult to be saved, even impossible. I send my blessing to M. Augusta, may the Lord strengthen her. I send my blessing to M. Ksenia. May the Lord comfort your brother Kirill in his sorrow, and may he deliver his wife from temptation. If she doesn’t improve, then it’s better to both leave together. Let him pray to God for his wife, so that the Lord will enlighten her, and you pray for both of them. I wish God's mercy to the servant of God Xenia. May the Lord heal her from her illness. Let the Mother of God serve a prayer service, but you can get treatment in the hospital. Calling upon you the peace and blessing of God, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: