436. Козельщанский Рождество-Богородицкий монастырь в Колебякском уезде Полтавской губернии Послушнице Ксении Горюшкиной. 1896–1907. О необходимости просить Божией помощи на все дела и послушания, творить Иисусову молитву и понуждать себя на все доброе

I congratulate you on the past holiday of the Resurrection of Christ and the current days of Holy Pentecost and wish you to spend these holy days in health, peace, patience, complacency, obedience and humility. I received your letter a long time ago, but due to lack of time I did not answer you. You write that with the help of God you have been determined to enter the holy monastery for the tenth month now and still cannot get used to the orders, rules, and customs of the monastery. Ask yourself for God’s help in all your deeds and obediences, and say the Jesus Prayer more often, and force yourself to do all the good things: to pray, to read the books of the Fathers, and to obey, and to do all kinds of work. Don’t be proud, don’t envy and don’t complain, don’t look down on anyone and don’t judge, don’t talk idle, don’t walk around your cells idle and needless and don’t make friends; observe simplicity, meekness and humility in everything, and always reproach and condemn yourself in everything, and consider yourself worse than everyone else, and ask yourself more often: “Lord, give me patience, generosity and meekness.” May God help you to quickly learn to read and understand with your mind what you read, as well as to write. I'm sending you a card. Calling upon you peace and God's blessing, I remain with sincere goodwill. You might be interested in: