394. Казанский Калужский монастырь Пелагии Ермаковой (в монашестве Порфирии). 1894–1909. Что Матушка не велит, того и не делай. Лучше здесь потерпеть за грехи ради Царствия Небесного

Venerable Pelagia in the Lord! I received your letter. You write that the mother abbess was angry with you and wanted to drive you out of the monastery, but you don’t go, but beg, and beg her, and ask her for forgiveness. But try to correct yourself with God’s help, and what is not commanded, should not be done. But it is very dangerous to receive strangers in a monastery, and they should not be allowed into their cells, but into a strange hotel. And if she gave you over, then be patient and humble yourself. With God's help, everything will pass, just calm down. And reproach and blame yourself more that you are to blame, but don’t have anything bad in your mind against your mother abbess, but pray more earnestly to God for her, then she too will be touched in her soul and forgive you. And ask yourself more often: “Lord! Give me patience, generosity and meekness." And don’t be discouraged, and don’t grumble, and don’t lose heart, and don’t judge anyone, read the books of the Fathers, and say the Jesus Prayer more often, and always keep in mind the fear of God, and the fear of death, and the fear of future torment, and it’s better to suffer here for your sins for the sake of the Kingdom of Heaven, and then so that the Lord will have mercy on you. Calling upon you peace and God's blessing, I remain with sincere goodwill. You might be interested in: