351. Слезы на исповеди бывают не когда нам хочется, а когда даст их Господь. Приучайся к молитве здесь, чтобы славословить Бога в вечности. Молитву Иисусову произноси на всяком месте со вниманием и с чувством покаяния

I wish you peace of mind and salvation. You write that they demand tears from you in confession. But it's a little strange. Tears come not when we want, but when the Lord gives them. You must definitely go to confession with the consciousness of your sins, with a feeling of repentance for them and contrition for them. So you need to confess. And you shouldn’t even force yourself to cry. If tears come on their own, then cry. If another time your confessor tells you to cry, then tell him that you have no tears and your heart is hard, and ask him to pray for the gift of tears to you. Maybe they will follow his prayers. We must humble ourselves, reproach ourselves, and ask God for patience. Another admonition is absolutely correct: to get used to prayer here in order to glorify God in eternity. And force yourself to pray, especially the Jesus Prayer, saying it in every place with attention and a feeling of repentance. There is no need to cry in front of people, but it is better when you are alone. And in confession you can cry if there are tears. Just don’t believe your tears, don’t pay attention to them, don’t think they mean anything. There are tears from both vanity and other passions. The main thing you need is humility, awareness of your sins and sincere repentance for them. Peace to you and God's blessing. You might be interested in: