346. Терпение полезнее утешений. На свой разум не полагайся, а больше верь словам духовной матери. К молитвам себя надо понуждать

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. I wish you peace of mind and salvation. You write that good things don’t last long, and then there’s languor again. But don’t be surprised at this, this is how it should be, for consolation alone is not useful for us, and is even harmful. For the path to the Kingdom of Heaven is narrow and sorrowful. We must endure everything and not lose heart, but pray and ask the Lord for help. Patience is more useful than consolations, St. Fathers. Do not shy away from your spiritual mother, ask her and listen, and you will find salvation and peace of mind. Don’t rely on your own reason, but rather believe what she says. You need to force yourself to pray when you don’t feel like it. Don’t pay attention to your thoughts and don’t be afraid of them, but say your prayer more diligently, and consider yourself the most sinful of all. Try to fulfill Pentecost and read the Apostle and the Gospel every day, even one chapter at a time. It would be better to read in a row, and not the same thing. There is no need to give in to despair, but hope in God’s mercy and repent of your sins. Peace to you and God's blessing. I am sending you a leaflet about patience. You might be interested in: