338. Как часто надо причащаться. Польза от откровения бывает тогда, когда советы духовной матери принимаешь с верою и стараешься исполнять

You write that Mother Superior allowed you to receive communion once a month. In my opinion, it is more useful for you to do as the sisters do, to join in with fasting, and that’s enough. There is no need to expose yourself. Well, if there is a long gap between posts, then one more time is possible, and that’s enough. It is better to reveal your thoughts to your spiritual mother; she understands more in this matter than a priest. You just need to open your thoughts with humility, with self-condemnation. Yes, we must accept everything that they say with faith and try to fulfill it, then the revelation will benefit. Try to talk less and laugh less, and especially do not condemn your spiritual mother. This is a great sin and temptation. Don’t recognize other people’s embarrassment; you can’t give any benefit when you yourself are in passions. Let him speak to his spiritual mother, and he will soon receive peace of mind. Likewise, you should not tell anyone your embarrassment except your spiritual mother. But worldly priests do not understand monastic life, and therefore cannot give the correct answer. Humble yourself more, do not judge others, pray and ask God for help, and He will not leave you. Peace to you and God's blessing. You might be interested in: