290. Не унывай, а смиряйся и покаяние приноси. В церкви, при людях, плакать не следует. Следуй во всем советам игумении

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. May the Lord be with you and console you in your sorrows. You write that you almost fell into despair from the letter. May the Lord protect you from this. We must not lose heart, but rather humble ourselves and bring repentance. And it’s good that she finally confessed and came to terms with it. This is kind to God and good for your soul. May the Lord help you open your thoughts and enlighten you for the salvation of your soul. God will bless you to open everything and hide nothing, and try to listen to Mother. If when the thought comes that she works better with others, then this thought must be driven away and not be believed. Do not force yourself to cry, but pray with attention and with the feeling that you are a sinner in everything before the Lord. And if the tears come on their own, then you can cry. Only in church, in front of people, should you not cry. May the Lord strengthen your health. If Mother Abbess lets me go to Moscow, then we can go. But if she doesn’t advise going, then it’s best to listen to her. Pray to the Mother of God and ask Her for help. Peace to you and God's blessing. You might be interested in: