278. Из монастыря не выходи – это искушение. Молись о прощении грехов, проси у Господа христианской кончины. От больных Господь требует не трудов и понуждения, а смирения и благодарения. Помни, что Бог смотрит на сердце человека

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. May God's mercy be with you! May the Lord strengthen your health, and most of all give you patience. Do not grieve, but thank the Lord for everything and surrender to His will. Don’t even think about leaving the monastery, it’s a temptation for you. This will not make you better, but you will only lose your monastery. Be patient in the monastery, and the Lord will not leave you. And do not be afraid of death, but trust in the mercy of the Lord. While you are alive, constantly pray for the forgiveness of your sins, ask the Lord for Christian demise and trust in the mercy of God. He won't leave you. If you can’t go to church every service, then go when you can. The Lord does not require labor or coercion from the sick, but requires humility and gratitude. When you are able, go to Matins, and when you are weak, pray at home as best you can. You can celebrate Pentecost with just small bows or even sitting. Remember that God looks at the heart. In church, be forced to say prayer, and for absent-mindedness, reproach yourself and bring repentance. Asking for peace and God's blessing on you, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: