268. Послушнице Лидии. 1906–1907. Если спрашиваешь о своих духовных нуждах, то советы надо непременно исполнять. Готовить пищу в келлии дозволяется только старым да больным

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. I wish you salvation and peace of mind from the Lord. She did a good job of describing her state of mind. Indeed, this is a temptation of the enemy, and may the Lord deliver you from it. Humble yourself more, consider yourself worse and more sinful than any novice and never judge anyone. If you do this, then the grace of the Lord will cover you from the snares of the enemy and you will live in the monastery with spiritual benefit. May the Lord deliver you from addiction. Fear this like the fire of hell. Why do you go to the treasurer? If you ask her about your spiritual needs, then you can go; but you just have to absolutely do what she says. And if you don’t want to fulfill it, then it’s better not to go. But you should never have any empty and idle talk. Only the elderly and the sick, for whom the refectory food is rough, are allowed to prepare food in their cells. If you are sick and it is difficult to live on refectory food, then you too can be blessed by Mother Superior when you prepare something for yourself. And if you are full of food at a meal, then on a whim you should not cook for yourself separately, this is sinful. May the Lord strengthen you in monastic life and help you. Calling upon you peace and God’s blessing, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: