249. Лень, равнодушие и нервность Батюшка о. Амвросий называл хандрой. Если ученицы лучше тебя становятся – это повод к самоукорению и смирению

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. Sister in the Lord M. Magdalene! I wish you spiritual peace and God’s help in your exploits. I received your letter. If you write that you live distractedly and carelessly, then at least don’t forget to humble yourself, reproach yourself, and bring repentance to God for your failures. I received the parcel, God bless you and the other sisters for your diligence. Laziness, indifference, nervousness - all this together, the late Father Fr. Ambrose called melancholy. It's the same with you. It happens due to impatience or lack of humility. But you don’t need to be discouraged or succumb to this state, but try to break yourself. Don’t think about the abbotship, consign everything to oblivion. If they don’t bother you, then thank God! Pay attention to yourself! I send my blessing to M. Evstolia, Pasha, Varvara Vladimirovna, Varya and your cell attendant. May the Lord give them humility and obedience. You write that your students are becoming better than you. Thank God! God help them! And for you - a new reason for self-reproach and humility. It is necessary to insist a little that they obey, especially if you see a disposition towards obedience. O. Zosima thanks for the rosary and gloves. My health is all right, thank God. I’m not sick, I’m working out little by little. Calling upon you peace and God’s blessing, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: