198. Тщеславие и осуждение препятствуют молитве. Душевные изменения держат нас в смирении. Внимание и умиление не есть плод твоих усилий, но дар Божией благодати

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. Sister in the Lord M. Magdalene! I wish you God's mercy and spiritual salvation. May the Lord help you in your spiritual and physical labors and guide you on the path of salvation. It is good that you recognize vanity and condemnation in yourself. Fight against these passions with the help of God, otherwise this is a significant obstacle to prayer. And if you are interested in hobbies, bring repentance as soon as possible. You ask why things don’t always feel the same in the soul. But the sky is not always the same: sometimes it’s clear, sometimes it’s raining, sometimes it’s cold. But spiritual changes are useful for us; they keep us humble. Then know that attention and tenderness are not the fruit of your efforts and efforts, but a gift of God’s grace. But God comes on its own, in its own time, without waiting for you, as the saints teach. Fathers; Only the Lord looks to see if the heart and soul are ready to receive the gift? And this preparation consists in contrition of the heart and humility of thoughts and soul. We must be forced to say prayer with contrition of heart, with humility, with the goal of repentance, and nothing more. There is little difference between sins and transgressions - we will be responsible for the wallpaper if we do not repent. Treat your sisters more gently, you don’t need to insist too much, unless it’s necessary, but rather say: “It would be better this way, I think so, but then whatever you want.” I send my blessing to Lydia Ivanovna. May the Lord strengthen her mental and physical strength. I send my blessing to Pasha. May the Lord strengthen the unsettled and wavering sister in good will. Do not waste time in persuading her, the Lord sees your work. Pray to God for her. Asking for peace and God's blessing on you, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: