145. Если боишься смерти, то готовься к ней покаянием и исповедию. Не вспоминай исповеданные грехи. Злопамятность большой вред приносит душе

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. I wish you spiritual salvation. I received your letters. May the Lord heal you from your illness. Pray and ask Him for help. Now get treatment, but you can leave the fasting and see what happens. And death will take its toll, even if you visit all the doctors. Therefore, if you are afraid of death, then you must try to prepare for it and cleanse your sins through repentance and confession. If there is something unconfessed in the soul, then it certainly must be confessed. Do not remember your previous sins, but pray to God that the Lord will remove them from your memory, and try to please Him with good deeds. You definitely need to reconcile with that sister in your soul and not have any grudge against her. Otherwise, rancor brings great harm to the soul. God bless you to come to us when it is more convenient for you. Peace to you and God's blessing. You might be interested in: