137. Открывай душевные язвы пред Господом и ищи разрешения и прощения. Страсти и падения смиряют человека. Гордость – причина многих и лютых падений

M. St. O. n. G.I.H.B.n. p.n. When you see that you are not correcting yourself, but are only adding sins to sins, then you must try to repent of them. Hurry to reveal the wounds of your soul before the Lord and seek permission and forgiveness. And if, after forgiveness, you again fall into the same situation, again resort to repentance - and so on until the end. And God, seeing your work, your repentance will not leave you without His help and mercy. If He bequeathed to us to forgive a repentant brother seventy times seven times, then will He not give us more forgiveness when we resort to Him in repentance? And that passions do not recede, this is according to God’s will. They write to St. Fathers, that passions and falls humble a person, bring him into heartfelt contrition and thereby attract God's mercy to him. Of course, we must run with all our might and avoid sin, for if we ourselves, through our own negligence, fall into sins, we will only deserve greater condemnation. And in those things that happen involuntarily or due to our weakness, let us cleanse them with repentance. Avoid pride, for it is the cause of many and severe falls. Humble yourself, reproach yourself, consider yourself the last and worst of all, do not condemn anyone, then you will receive God’s mercy. Force yourself to make peace with your sister, it’s not good to live like that. If there are two paths ahead: to your homeland and here, then choose for yourself which will be more beneficial for your soul, and I bless you there. We don’t need to believe dreams, but we need to pray to God more and ask Him for help. Calling upon you peace and God’s blessing, I remain with the desire for salvation. You might be interested in: