I no longer expect anything good from life. Where to find support?translated

Reader question:

Good evening! I saw this contact on the site because I was looking for an Orthodox psychologist, and I decided to try to write, because I understand that I need help. Briefly about yourself and your problem. My name is M., I am 40 years old, not married, no children, I live with my mother and brother. A year ago my dad died of cancer. The first couple of months after my dad’s death, I held on and didn’t become limp. But as soon as dad passed away, it felt like life had broken down, I had broken down, everything in the house had broken down at once. The support and support is gone. A wild fear appeared that I might be left alone, that there was no outside help. I have developed a phobia of being alone at home; in the morning I get up with tremors in my body. At the same time, there was a period at work when the company was frozen. I went to work, but since there was nothing to do there, I sat and delved into myself: life was not a success, loneliness frightened me so much that my hands were shaking. There was a period when, due to nerves, my mother fell ill: hospital, intensive care unit. At this point I almost went crazy, I started crying all the time. The result was a psychiatrist’s diagnosis: symptomatic depression.

I was treated at a neurosis clinic for a month and came out a little calmer. After 2 weeks, anxiety again, just out of nowhere. And to all this was added...