How to trust the world and God's Will?translated

Reader question:
How to trust the world and God's Will? I know that God has prepared a better destiny for every person, but I cannot trust it. I am constantly afraid of dying, afraid of illnesses, and worried. There are times when it’s hard for me to leave the house, because I’m afraid of dying on the way somewhere. I’m afraid for my husband, to lose him, I’m afraid that he will get sick. I’m afraid for my mother, for all my relatives and friends, I’m afraid to be left without them. What is this? Self-pity? I think about this a lot. If God has prepared a better fate for everyone, why then does someone get terminally ill or have terrible accidents? Or is this my way of bargaining? After all, it is difficult for the human mind to accept anything other than “good.” I’m scared to live, I want to be happy and please my loved ones. I won’t go to the psychiatrist anymore, because I feel good only for the period of using the drugs, then everything will start again.
Nadezhda
Priest's answer:
VOLKOV Alexander, priest
Priest Alexander VOLKOV
Rector of the Church of St. Sergius of Radonezh in Solntsevo
Dear Nadezhda, trust in God is built on some life experience. It’s impossible to build this trust in yourself just like that, in words.
If you have not been in the Church for long, then you need to be patient and...



