I was raised as Christian pronatalist. The movement is white supremacist.

(RNS) — The woman in the front pew caught my attention. Her pink calico dress looked straight from the set of Little House on the Prairie.  She was pregnant and holding a baby in her arms. Four other children stood next to her, end-capped by the father.

At 14, I was immediately fascinated by their cheerful courage to live a countercultural life in our church of working moms and the standard 2.5 kids. I loved  Little House . I wanted to be a Christian wife and mother, and I decided then and there to be just like her. Five years later, I’d get my chance. Mentored by the calico-dressed trad wife, I would become pregnant nine times in 10 years, with five live births and four living children. I believed our lifestyle was nurturing and wholesome—devoted to God—and that when we suffered, we were aligned with Christ.

My mentor was among the first adherents of Bill Gothard’s Institute of Basic Life Principles (IBLP) at our Southern Baptist megachurch. Bill Gothard, now 91 and currently in the news again due to his recent heart attack and subsequent coma , never married or had children. But he and the Quiverfull movement he promoted had a lot to say about families, ultimately…