59, alone, scared to go to the doctor. Where can I find support?translated

Reader question:

Hello, father! I am 59 years old, unmarried, no children. I really wanted to have a family, but the man I liked was married, and I didn’t meet a single man I could love. She worked a lot, took care of her parents, and helped. She didn’t dare to give birth to a child alone. How to grow one? I know how many people condemn women without families and children. This is how my life turned out. Now there are no parents, I am alone, I suffer very much from loneliness. New challenge: I got sick. I'm very afraid to go to the doctor. I’m afraid that an incurable disease will be discovered, I’m afraid to hear the diagnosis and be left alone with the disease. Everyone has their own life, problems, their own family. Nobody needs me. Now I'm just crying and shaking with fear. Dejection is a terrible sin. I read prayers, an akathist, I went to Diveevo, took communion. At work I am considered a strong person, but in reality I am not. Maybe everything is not so bad, but there is no strength to overcome fear. Forgive me for my frankness. I'm looking for some support.

Svetlana

Priest's answer:

Archpriest Andrey EFANOV

God bless you, dear Svetlana!

I think that you are not depressed now, but quite natural, normal fear. You are rightfully afraid that you might...